As a new mom I didn’t know what to expect when it came to breastfeeding. Everyone told me the health benefits of breastfeeding but no one mentioned the emotional side of it. I had heard many stories where some moms hated breastfeeding or saw it as a job. Then I heard stories where the babies wouldn’t latch properly. Fortunately for me, my baby boy latched immediately and I haven’t had any problems.
Personally, I love breastfeeding my son. To me it is an indescribable feeling. I feel so much love and peace while breastfeeding him… It really is incredible. That’s the reason why lately I’ve been feeling extremely worried at the fact that I am now back to working full-time. Obviously that shortens my time with my son and also my chances of breastfeeding him and that is killing my milk production.
I am fortunate enough to have my mother take care of the baby while I go to work and when I speak to her about this topic her answer is always “Just stop breastfeeding”. But between us, I am not ready to stop. I guess I am being a little selfish – I see it almost like a break up (hope you are not judging).
My solution to that is to pump extra at work. Which can be hard since my job is a very hands-on and it is difficult to get away for 20 minutes. Luckily, my co-workers are breastfeeding advocates so they understand 100%. Now, the other issue I am having is that my baby is getting a little lazy to breastfeed. He is getting too used to the bottle.
I guess this is inevitable. I will most definitely breastfeed him for as long as I can but I can’t help but to feel sad about this transition. If you have any ideas, solutions or breastfeeding stories, share them with me! I really hope I’m not alone on this haha.