I have been a little MIA lately but here I am again! I have to admit that the last 10 days have been rather difficult. My birthday was on June 6th and it amazing and beautiful. We were lucky to be able to be at the beach, my favorite place. Even though, it was amazingly beautiful, it was also extremely exhausting. I think this is what caused my weariness.
Busy isn’t even the word to describe my life as a mother.
I am constantly thinking and kind of unfocused with all the new things. There has been times where I felt lost. But for some reason the past 10 days that feeling was more pronounced – I felt very lost. I had so much to do every day that I did not know where to start. It was so much that I just didn’t do many of the things on my list. From pumping, to cooking, to cleaning, even writing…
I have realized that a mother’s everyday goal is basically to survive and just get to the night…
Days are a constant circle of working, planning, raising my son, keeping the house tidy, cooking, and paying bills… And last comes my end goal… To get some silence and peace.
Now, after a week of “recharging” I think I am finally back to normal, or at least forcing myself to be. I am looking back at my birthday weekend and that alone makes up for every struggle I went through this week.
Ha! A mother finding strength in her child… I never understood my mom so much until this week.
I am also forcing myself to do the thing I like to do for myself, like going on long walks, taking long baths, soaking up some sun, working on my blog, and obviously writing.
Here are a few of my favorite pictures from out trip to the beach and the pool –